I am definately going through some growing pains right now in my work, relationships, and myself. Change is hard! And being a person that continually looks for the next big thing to happen makes it even harder. I sometimes wonder if I am a masochist and I secretly like to torture myself but truely I know that isn't it. By nature I am a planner. Organizing, cleaning and making lists relieve anxiety for me (thats sounds soooo masochistic) but there are something in life that you really just can't plan for or control. They happen when they happen and in my case when the things you want don't happen as soon as you would like it you have to learn from that too.